Hi everyone, well as you can see this blog is more than just about photo's. It has turned into a spot where I can express my thoughts and feelings. I never thought I would become a blogger, but when I became sick it was much easier for me to blog it, then have to explain it over and over to family and friends. I have now come to enjoy it and find it to be a big stress reliever for me. I am finally moving on to the next chapter in my life. I am not going to spill my entire guts here, but I will give you enough of the story to understand the situation. Okay so here it goes, if you hurry you can still turn back now.
Alright then, here we go. When I was just an infant my parents divorced. My mother and the courts made the decision to keep me, my sister, and my brother away from our father. It doesn't matter what the situation was at the time because no one should be allowed to do that to someone's children. There is always a way to make it a safe environment for all parties involved. The real looser's in the end are the children and parents who lost the involvement. No one is perfect in this world, we all make mistakes. Life would be easier if people could just forgive and move forward. Anyway, I finally found the correct mailing address for my dad, whom I had never met. I only spoke with him briefly on the phone about ten years after my mom passed away. I have never met him or even knew what he looked like. I have always felt in-complete not knowing him. So after being diagnosed with cancer. I have finally made the decision to let the past go, and move forward. I want to feel complete, and you don't know how good it feels to actually have a face to put with the word dad. I for the first time in my life can actualy say dad and it truly applies. I wrote my dad a letter, and really opened my heart which has been a very difficult thing for me to do. I have become very good at not letting people in because I don't want anymore pain in my life. My own husband even at times will tell me to stop blocking him out and let him in. Especially when I was first diagnosed with the cancer. He is the last person on this earth that I would ever want to hurt. He has been with me through thick and thin. He has been the one person in my life who gave me the courage to stand up to my step father and the ability to stand on my own two feet independently. Thanks hun, I love you Marty Q. That is just a little inside joke between us his real name is Kevin. Anyways, getting back to the subject at hand. My dad answered my letter and sent me a few photo's. Thank you! He asked me to call so this evening I did, but there was no answer. I left a message with my telephone number, so we will wait and see what happens next. Below is a picture he sent of himself relaxing and enjoying life in Ely, Minnesota on the canoe boundary waters. So go ahead and take a look. That is it for now. Enjoy your life while you can here on earth, because you never know what may happen tomorrow. Good night!
